Good morning! It sucks staying away from stores and people. Now that we must wear face masks to protects others as well as ourselves, it hasn't been difficult to stay in our "yard space." We went 12 days without going inside a store. Seven of those days without fresh produce. Luckily we had frozen and canned. Not as good, but it works and it kept us out of the store. I pushed it out as far as I could, but on Friday, I had to go. Donning a face mask. I also deemed Friday to do all the errands since I'd have to be out anyway. Little did I know that wearing a face mask would prove to be challenging for me. I felt suffocating. I felt scared. I had two panic attacks. It's just frightening to know why we must wear masks and being out could be deadly. Hopefully, not likely, but possibly.
My first panic attack was mild. I was in the store grabbing what I needed, the only customer in the store, and my head starts throbbing, my heart is racing, and I get jittery. I quickly pay so I could get out of there so I could breathe. I run into the next store, grab what I need, and get to the register. It starts again! This time it didn't help because I forgot to take my sunglasses off and put my regular glasses on, so I was without my glasses too. So I was freaking out, messing up, all right in front of the cashier. The cashier was sweet lady reminded me to take a deep breathe and that I wasn't the only person experiencing the panic attacks. It sucks!
How can wearing a face mask make me feel so violated?! Even before the mandated wearing of the masks, my heart would be racing. Now, it's just frightening. I know there will be an end to all these extra precautions, but it seems far away.
I've also been experiencing migraines after I have to go in stores. Two weeks ago I noticed it, but didn't put anything to it. But I've had a pinching, nagging headache all day every day since Friday. We'll just say poor kids because I'm constantly telling them they need to quiet down, or I'm hiding out in the dark in my room to escape their loudness.
How have you been dealing with life during this crazy time in our lives?
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